Monday, September 19, 2005
and.
the past, the recent, the present.
to him, she was cute.
to her, he was handsome.
but he has yet to be fume.
and b4 anything,
she thinks she's awesome.
she wanted sincerity.
he asked for loyalty.
she broke this treaty.
and he was left empty.
he loved her too much.
he trusted her too well.
lets say he comes across any doubts,
he'll keep it to himself.
her ex that came back.
that made the new relationship crack.
u left him with ur tracks.
with the love that remained intact.
she used to be his number one.
but now she seemed to be the last one.
he hoped he was the only one.
but finally knew she had another one.
since rules were meant to be broken,
actions were meant to be taken.
promises were usually mistaken,
for leaving oneheartbroken.
just had enough with an ex that suck.
hey dont worry they dont even know you.
however u still wanted me to stay stuck
and be fooled again by you?
heh.
and they broke up.
he left her happy.
hadnt he loved,
wouldnt he cared.
he moved on.
she carried on.
21 June 2005.
the date they broke up.
the date he got so fu*ked up.
fu*k the day she came back.
dont think i would even look back.
i found my someone new.
& she's one of the rarest few.
i kept my promise i wont lie.
i restrict myself only for you.
i tried my best not to be careless.
but somehow u still get jealous.
this dealer rolledthe dice.
at the same time, claiming his prize.
for the things i've sacrifised,
u cant see but yet u criticize.
i loved you so much.
so sincerely as an angel's touch.
togerher we'll sit and watch.
ant at the same time i'll judge.
thinking a lot when ure jealous.
imagine more when ure helpless.
we had our 4th mishap.
ever since the daywe met.
not wanting to expand the gap,
i returned from where i leapt.
stop thinking this is a game.
'cos uve ben mine all the same.
u wont talk to me
u started to hate me.
u wont tell me why.
u left me wondering why.
as asinine as a little child, it melts my heart when i see u smile.
again.
the fall.
the blood meets at the blade of the knife.
while the enemy suffers the pain.
i'll fall and disappoint everyone in my life.
& ill drop to die in the glooms of the rain.
the rain.
the sky grows grey and the wind had their way.
sunlight wont be seen again till the next day.
droplets started racing like bullets in arrays.
exploding each time they reached the stage play.
the stage play.
identities are kept unknown.
and actors carried on acting.
an enigma by the payphone,
so busy thinking and dreaming.
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11:33 pm
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
highway blues
hey. tired but still have to update. i just felt like updating. this holiday seems to make me grow more tired by day. sleep late in the night and still have to wake up early and go to school for classes. we sort of had our timeout. then i was like getting myself to adapt the new temporary life. without her. then suddenly she sms from indonesia saying that she's coming back real soon. so i was expecting her on monday. yup. then came the news bout the plane crash in indonesia which freaked me out. i asked a lot of people wondering where the plane was actually heading. no one was really sure. i thought and thought and made myself more tired. i admit. i missed. so, we sort of met. online. and we chatted. but not long she have to go. again. to study. i still had lots to tell. lots to ask. but she went aniway. well its okay. then. talking bout this holiday, it made me have the mood to study. yah. i practised maths. lotsa them. yea. and i like it. for the last two nights, i had these weird dreams. ugh. fuck the replacements laaa. stop looking at me like that. keeps my mind wondering why. nvm u wont understand. dont bother asking. i grow more tired thinking. so i avoid thinking by doiing things that i hate. btw, had my time with haziq. felt more satisfied now. fuck la he say play2 only. actually today my parents wants to bring me to johore with them. but i said no. im sick of the highways. it bores me. tmr got art class again.on sat, i have to attend an open house at Yishun. i dont feel like having fun already. talking bout fun, i hate friends who are selfish. fuck u la. u should know who u are. btw, Ratu said she'll be online at 5 yesterday. but i stayed till 6.3opm and she did not appear from anywhere. at night, i came online again at 9. stayed till 11pm. still negative. my pc brokedown today so i used the laptop. cb the pc ah. tired ah want to sleep.
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11:27 pm
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